What do You think of me?

LORD, it is so easy to get caught up in that wicked vortex of wondering what others think of me.

As a woman.

As a widow.

As a Momma, a Mother in law, a Grannee.

I struggle with words that are said or not said.

I fight against the emotions when there are looks given or not.

I overthink, and 2^nd guess way too much.

Why do I care?

What difference does it make to my life – whatever they think, say or do?

99% of the people in my life see or hear me when it’s either a better moment or when I am strong enough to put on a brave face.

Few ever see the bad side of my life.

Or of me.

It’s become easier to swallow back the words, the emotions.

It’s safer to keep things to myself.

I pray a lot.

I cry out to YOU more than I ever thought I would or could.

I work at building the shell around me – to guard my heart.

But not to close myself off.

Such a delicate balancing act.

What do YOU see when YOU look at me?

What do YOU think?

What do YOU say about me?

LORD, when I am afraid – I trust in YOU . . .

: Hebrews 11:6 – And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who seek Him.

• LORD, I ask for faith. To please YOU . . . to draw near to YOU . . . to believe that YOU exist . . . and to believe that YOU reward those who seek YOU . . .

: Romans 5:5 – and Hope does not put us to shame, because God’s Love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit Who has been given to us.

• Thank YOU GOD for Hope . . .

: John 4:23-24 – But the hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for the Father is seeking such people to worship Him. God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.

• Here i am to worship YOU . . . FATHER, SON & HOLY SPIRIT . . . GOD . . .